Lately I’ve been in one of those fogs… where you are more keenly aware of your mind and way more “inside yourself” than anything else. And one thing that I keep coming back to – well, I figured I might as well share it with you guys. That’s what blogs are for, right?
You know how growing up… for most people there’s a moment where we see someone (most likely a parent) doing something that they just do not love? They seem so miserable or robot-like. Like a zombie just going through the motions, day in and day out, because they have to. And we swear to ourselves that we won’t be like that. We won’t let ourselves just become a statistic… another drone that just drudges through life.
And then one day, we wake up and we’re exactly that.
How did we get there?
The bigger question I’ve been asking myself lately is… how do we change that?
There must be a way, right? People all over the place are doing what they love. So there’s got to be a way to make that happen.
But how do you bridge the gap? How do you get to the point where you aren’t just mindlessly pushing through each day, constantly counting down to the next weekend and you are actually enjoying what you do? Most people spend well over 2000 hours a year at their job, and what a waste that is when it’s a job that we don’t love.
We heard people tell us all the time that we could do anything we put our minds to. That we could be anything we wanted to be. So how many people actually took that to heart and really made it happen?
What about you guys – do you like what you do?
To be clear, I am SUPER grateful for the job that I have and for all that it has afforded me. I believe that the work I do makes a difference and that is something that’s really important to me. Maybe this is less about my actual job, currently, and more about the stage of life that I’m in. I don’t know… But I do want to be clear that I’m not ungrateful.
I just sometimes look back and think about how I got to where I am and wonder how the slightest change in direction could’ve landed me in a completely different place. This isn’t really the focus of this post, though, so I’ll get back to that before I veer too far off course…
I’m just not someone who sees myself sitting at a desk. I’ve been doing this kind of work for 12 years, now, and I just don’t know if it’s right for me. I want to work with my hands. I want to be outside more. I want… just something different.
Do you now anyone who’s made a complete career change at some point in their lives? How did they do this?
Doing something like this would take a lot of faith and right now it just seems like nothing more than a fantasy.
I don’t mean to sound depressing or completely unhappy because I’m not. I have a good life. I’m a happy person and I’m not sure if I do a good job of conveying that through this blog, but it’s true. I’m just not one to go more than an hour without having a smile on my face. It’s just not who I am.
But even in the midst of that, I can’t help but wonder, sometimes, if this is really what I should be doing… if it’s where I should be. This isn’t something that I just started feeling recently, but I’ve discussed it with Studly on quite a few occasions over the years. And it just all comes back to one major point: how would I even begin to make such a drastic career change?
Anywho – this is really just my trying to sort through some thoughts “out loud” so I’d love to hear from you. Anything to add? Is anyone else dealing with similar feelings? Have any of you or someone you know gone through this and just taken a giant leap of faith? I’d love to hear about it!